This 37-day experiment coincides with my upcoming 50th birthday, in 37 days. Go here to read a brief description of what it's all about. There's more info below:
The three patterns I want to break:
Facing - Rather than face a difficult situation (overdue bills, family issues, people whose behavior has become toxic to me or me to them), I find myself avoiding it, delaying it, simply disappearing from the relationship. This also shows up as procrastination and its cousin, frenetic activity. I want to walk toward, not away from.
Fitness/Food - I find myself loving the gym when I go, and yet not going consistently. The best I have ever felt was a few years ago after a yoga class--an amazing feeling. And I never went back. That's not about laziness or a busy schedule. That's about a deeper story, I think. I am also learning to recognize that I'm an emotional eater. Happy? Celebrate with food! Anxious? Eat. Feeling sorry for myself? Eat junk. I want to live my wellness vision, redefine myself as an athlete and develop a healthy relationship with food in which it is fuel, not consolation.
Financial - I completed an exercise a few years ago where you had to finish sentences like "Money is ______" All of my answers were negative, like "Money is evil." I want to make peace with my financial history and create a new one in which money is freedom, not evil. When my business partner, David, asked me over the phone recently how I would feel if Life is a Verb was a huge financial success, I shocked myself (and perhaps him, perhaps not) with what came shooting out of my mouth, my first impulse: "I would feel as if I had sold out."
Will I do all that pattern-breaking in 37 days? A lifetime of patterning broken in that short a time? Perhaps, perhaps not. This blog will catalog the trying. And it will only exist for these 37 days.
